Monday, April 30, 2007 @ 4:42 AM

i like that song alot(what hurts the most).. hees. jus keep listening to it over and over again. im not even getting sick of it, infact i like it more. been having alot of coincidene similarity with dumbo! you mian, and ice tea, hahas. im falling sick. not at this time please, im at the beginning of my end, don do this to me!.


rahh! 3 papers on wed, social studies, add math and GEOG!. yay! im like a prodigy can?! anw, i feel that my compo wasn vey well written today! damm. and my chinese, i was like facing a brain lack. i think i wrote quite well for letter writing. but i wrote the same length for compo too! and rach reminded me, letter and compo have diff weightage! and i remembered, compo is 50 marks wherelse the darn letter is only 20 marks! what the hell man! im kind of screwed la!


oh well.. she is so whatever.. eh. i tot that was kind of rude too! but oh well... seriously! im really starting to detest you once again! damm. u made us pissed off again! why wont you ever change?!

@ 2:33 AM
what hurts the most

Sunday, April 29, 2007 @ 2:59 AM

ahh.. it didn last after all.. sad. knew it...

@ 2:56 AM

geog makes me mad.. im dying. im cramping all the facts in my head now and its not easy. hais. im so dead. i just wanna give up!!! damm!

Saturday, April 28, 2007 @ 9:06 AM

what chapters are coming out for mid year?? can anyone tell me. im fretting now!

@ 4:35 AM

im so screwed up! its 2 weeks to phantom and my tickets are not collected. im hell lazy to even step out of the house la. talk about going all the way to junction 8 sistic to collect two tickets. im not even sure what to wear on that day. a knee length skirt and a sweet pink blouse i suppose. i have not even wore that pink blouse out before, god knows why i got it in the first place. too sweet to be worn on me. eh.. and im reading geography now. and i have no idea why we even had to buy interactive geog text in the first place when marianne chong book suits learning better. i think its kind of wordy and it really turn me off! its like reading chunk and chunk of articles, and my brain kind of pause for a moment each and every few minutes and i have to re-read the whole passage. damm! im a screw up! reducing timber consumption by reducing waste.. how to save the forest, apparently..


and there he go hurting another girl again. told ya, it aint gonna last. just as i had expected.

Friday, April 27, 2007 @ 8:34 PM

its SIX mths to o`levels. and i realised i have many doubts in all my subj. except the humanities. damm. i have both my A and E maths, physics and chem hanging half past six in the air. with chinese o`lvl in one mth, i think i would have to re-do my chinese o lvl again. i am so unprepared. but i have decided to chiong the next SIX mths, which means spending more time on books. i so hate studying. but at least i found an easier way out. I NEED A SHORTCUT!


its been 4 long years since i have tuitions. and after the mid year, i would have to attend a group tuition with some fellow people. damm. PHYSICS ANDD CHEM! ohh.. remedial will end at 4.30, and tuition will start at 5.30. i would be so drain! but six mths will pass very fast.. i suppose. at least im not studying the five year course stream, oh else... i would have to study hard for another one and a half year. and thats even a more tidious way of learning.


goodbye saturdays and sundays. i used to have saturdays to slack, and sundayy afternoon to sleep. but its not gonna happen anymore, i have to dedicate my time to my schoolwork. i know its kind of ridiculous for me to aim for a 8 raw score for o`lvl. but i think its better to aim higher. a 8 raw score would mean, FOUR A1s, and TWO A2s. im planning to work on my SCIENCES, E MATH, ENGLISH, GEOGRAPHY, COMBINE HUMANITIES, LIT and CHINESE!. hell A maths. i reckon i will even get a C6 for it. but im gng to work hard on it. if my cousin can do it. so can i! but he was in SJI la. so what the hell!


DSA application is going to open soon! hopefully, i will secure a place in TEMASAK jc. but i would still have to work hard for my o`lvl to get the foundation stable. hmm, but then again. i don feel like going to TJC already. OH LORD, help me..

Thursday, April 26, 2007 @ 9:09 AM

we`ve got a GOLD! im on cloud nine!


my days in mayflower contemporary dance has finally come to an end. sad but true. it ended with a good fullstop though. dance has brought me to another stage in life whereby i can express myself better through acting and dancing at the same time. i would like to express my heartfelt thanks to my dance instructor, miss chua, and the two teacher in charge, mr ong and mrs quek. without the support of the teachers, many things would not have made possible. words cannot express my gratitude towards the teachers, espiecially to mr ong, whereby he had tolerated, understood and listened to each and every reason and opinion each dancer gave as individual. i felt just more than elated that we have all worked together as a group to acheive our target. in jus a blink, almost another four years of my life has come to an end. these four years was like a hurricane, fast and furious, time simply had just past without much notice. from my first art festival in sec one, to dances in old folk homes and my last syf in mayflower secondary. till today, i could still rememeber the times in lower secondary whereby i actually feared going for practices simply bcos it was too demanding and dance practices wore me off easily. thinking back, if i had skipped dance practices at that time, i wouldn be what i am today. its sad but inevitable that the sec fours have stepped down. and this mark a new journey for the current sec 3s to take over the positions. what will actually bring tears to my heart are actually the times i spend with each and everyone during dance. i will miss dance, but keep dancing guys!, espiecially to the sec twos this year: keep dancing and just do your best for the next competition in 2009. dance wont be the same again, therefore, memories are created.


danceyourlife.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007 @ 8:01 AM

you came right into my heart and made me happy when my life was turning into a complete boredom. but you crashed it all by showing me those incorrigible act of yours. i never did want you to turn out these way. when i saw the way you reacted infront of your friends, it was something that made me couldn believe my naked eyes. i was so used to seeing that innocent side of yours, that now, you have seemed to become an overnight stranger to me. it has been months since things are over, and i know i should have long forgotten you and place you aside. i tried and had failed, many times. it was just so difficult for me to treat as if nothing has ever happened in my life. i thought of ways to numb my feelings, its was like a total nightmare. like before, you told me you love me, but how am i suppoose to believe that. you are jus not who you are anymore. 'i love you' has seems to come out of your mouth so inconsiderly, whether you really meant it anot, i was just ardous to tell. keeping up with your pace has made me totally haggard. sometimes i yearn that i would stop trying to learn more about you.


you can really make me laugh and cry at the same time. only you could. and sometimes i wonder, why is it that you have taken control of my life? only your smile can keep my sadness away, at the same time, only your actions will keep my sadness on my face. where`s that child i used to know.?


i guess its all starting inside me again. i still love you.

@ 7:08 AM

paranoid, i hear my own screams. battling against my inner self. i don think i can hold on any longer.

Saturday, April 21, 2007 @ 8:01 PM

seriously!, i got accused for things i didn do. and i got a tongue waging for it. and now the truth has surfaced, and yet, where are you to apologise?. im hell angry and hell pissed. i don care if im the worst in your eyes if i really did those things. but guess wad, im just not as despicable. not as shallow to even think of reacting like that. what do you want me to think now, that you are still thinking hard of me, to think that i would do such stuff ya!. GOTCHA! dude, if u r reading this, pls get over it.. your actions got me thinking you are simply just as reckless as before.




had syf practice this morning, and it was quite a good run! yay! maintaining our silver would probably be the best gift i could have before my mid years. after practice, went down to amk HUB, with jiaqi, amanda, sera and nicole. as usual, we hang out at mos burger, and i slipped down into my teriyaki chicken set meal. yummy.. never really tasted how delicious food had been for a long time. [am i really turning to be an emo, not emo emo, but someone whos an introvert, and doesn feel anything with her surrondings anm?.] someone please enlighten me.




why did you just have to appear at that moment when i was so upset and down again?! i was punching the texts and there u r appearing right before my eyes! but yet i don get to tell you how i am anymore, bcos we aint even friends.


do you know how much it hurts me just to be able to look at you, yet unable to speak to you like before?

Friday, April 20, 2007 @ 5:12 AM

why do i feel that it was a right choice.
why do i feel as if the distance between our mentality and class status differs so much
why do i feel as if you were just another person that i will never look upon
giving me another choice in life before
yes, i would say,
u are a nono.

i think much about myself
and proud to say that i have acheive higher goals in life
i have learn the joy of being alone,
i have learn to fuifill my own individual needs
and yet, i see you still as shallow,
as dependent on someone.
yet somehow i don pity you anymore.
i despise you.
simply the reason
you`re a year older, yet less wiser.

i don feel hurt anm,
cos what seemed to be the worst diesaster
has become the beginning of a new life.


PRAISE THE LORD!

Monday, April 16, 2007 @ 6:11 AM



your smile gets me all moving.


hell.. 8 days to SYF! 14days to mid year! 27 days to PHANTOM of the OPERA!


your hysterical laughter.
your unforgettable voice.


im happy today! get to skip one week for SUPPLEMENTARY lessonS! woo-hoo!

Sunday, April 15, 2007 @ 5:24 AM

sports week was okay i guess.
did my napfa test. Ace everything except pull up.
give up at 11!
ran for 400m relay. i hate myself for not running regularly!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007 @ 8:16 AM

Monday, April 09, 2007 @ 5:27 AM

its not my fault that you are having trouble now, its not my fault that you are caught up and feel so tired up now. u thought everyone were unlike me, now you have got yourself thinking. im glad i`ve made that move, so glad things had got it out this way. bcos i can tell you im happy and i do not need to mask myself like you do to tell the world u are happy. im happy because of things that the world has brought to me after you, happy because you aint really happy. happy because you deserved it right from the start! the carbon copy is falling apart.. will there be more? or will it lose my interest from watching the episodes coming up later.


im pretty sure you do know that i know many things that you thought i wouldn find out. but telling me actually stuffed me with hint to learn the truth. you aint dumb, i aint stupid. so we`re continue hurting till all goes numb!

Saturday, April 07, 2007 @ 8:10 AM

dont you know my heart bleed everytime you spoke to me. its hurting me so much. i cant even find myself anymore. my spirit is as if floating. i am lost within you.

had fun today!

Friday, April 06, 2007 @ 4:58 AM

my blog has revived thanks to my boredom!!!

@ 1:14 AM

hi