Saturday, February 28, 2009 @ 7:03 AM
on my toes
Hello! im very tired ): i finally catched a new movie ytd. hahahaha
went to watch He's just not that into you before dance started yesterday! the movie was quite sad at some part, and i felt really teary. ahhhhh. and i wanna watch my Hotel for dogs! it's coming out soon in cinemas! YAY YAY YAY!

i kinda wanna watch a lot of movies now.

vi said my eyes was abit silver metallic today! kinda funny thinking about it. i stared into the mirror for approx 10min inspecting my eyes and trying to figure out the comments about my eyes! hahahaha. i always have people telling me my eyes are super watery as though im going to cry and stuff about my eyes being super sparkly. but i have no idea how my eyes differ from the others.

danced today again! well, least we improved.

and GJed ytd! wheeee, im really happy (: i feel really happy today, maybe cos its the last day of feb! and it's going to be march tomorrow (: i cant wait to graduate soon, really. but i don wanna grow up!

Thursday, February 26, 2009 @ 6:02 PM
if everyday was this wonderful (:
yes, BT's are over! (: (: (:
although i didn really studied. didn really knew how to do the papers, but there was peace.
and i thank God for that.

lit paper was interesting. (busy sipping pokkamilktea while doing it)

aanyway, after paper at 5 ytd, 0834 went to Mt Faber park to trek! the point is, we needed to trek to Henderson waves! i think we trekked for a good 1 hour half. i felt rather disappointed when i reached Henderson waves okay! i dunno which friend of mine, who told me that the view there is romantic!! please okay, it's HDB everywhere and there are only like 4 WAVES?!!! i was expecting a long path of route. other than making us feel sucidal since it was approx 63.7m above sea level, i felt nothing more exciting!


i felt so healthy until we went to eat Carls JR! BEEF chilli cheesee and Charboil Chicken! went home like really really late all thanks to the MISSING 265 and 138 that i had to take 269 which is a long loop!!! i almost died on the bus cos i ate too much at Carls, i wanted to puke! and i felt really tired but i couldn seems to fall asleep at all bcos i keep coughing like as though i wanted to throw up everything i have ate! so i ended up listening to 93.8Live, on natural birth and unnatural birth! hahahahaha. but still cant seems to fall asleep. and somehow i could remember anything that happen afer we boarded the train at dhoby gaut, did we sat down or stood up?! gosh, my memory is failing me.


im still thinking about the question that wx asked me while we were along the river last night.
would i really be that brave to risk my life and jump in for a friend like her. or would i scream frantically for help instead?


my mum just told me that i sleeptalked a lot last night. and my mum mentioned that i said i hated someone in particular! LOL! last night was a weird night with many weird dreams.
and now i still feel like puking.


should bathe sooon, gonna hang out at town before dance starts!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @ 5:39 AM
the 7 colours



left side of the rainbow!






right side of the rainbow!

Monday, February 23, 2009 @ 3:36 AM
start of BT!
i kinda screwed up my math and gp, but it's okay, i have learn to deal with it. it's quite hard to tell whether i was pass both the subject anot. but what's done is done. i hope i can at least pass both this H1! it's H1. i know i've got to put it lotsa effort. BTs speaks a lot eh! i cant believe im in J2 already, actually.

anyway, we had a good laugh today. many funny and hilarious things happened on the way home. pity wx wasn there for a good show. and i thought i lost my ezlink card and made a big fuss, goblock me!

and rach made us do this no.1 to no.11 test. and i tell you its quite true lor!!! HAHAHAH! yeahhh, they knoww why, but i kept denying thou! okay but it's quite true. i know im very indecisive. i know, i know! LOL!

anw, i think i shld go study my econs now. my very sad life.

Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 7:23 AM
LOMOGRAPHY!!!!!
im like the happiest person on earth now! today has been really tiring. econs lecture in the morn till noon, then lunched at J8, dance prac, youth and dinnered at J8 again. yes yes, i know BTs are next week, i'll study tomorrow, promise. but for now, im really happy!


Daina F+ arrived yesterday! so fast (:!!! it was only ordered on wednesday! so wx, xl and i immediately stopped doing our math when the doorbell rang! hahaha, i think the package was the only one inside the singpost van. cos the inside of the van looked really empty! im so happy (: though it's only momentary since it isn mine!! ): hahahahaha, least my Blackbird is mine!!

pardon all inferior low quality pictures here. taken with my 3.2mega sony ericsson cos my sony cam was low on batt!



Diana F+ (tokyo rising edition)

package comes along with a book! rather interesting !



DIANA 35mm backing to replace the 120mm back! :








all the picture masks! damm cool!





wahhhhhhh!!

as you can see, we were diligently doing math till Diana F+ came along~!

anyway! next presenting BLACKBIRD, fly!!! i collected it last sunday at wheelock place but didn have the time to blog abt it. not that i have plenty of time now, just that i wanna take a break from worrying over my block test. i believe God will take care of it! so as you all prolly know i love all things red, so my BBF is none other than RED!

this is MY (not the) Blackbird, fly. decided to name it Nightingale! for reason, i dunno why. i have to emphasize the word MY bcos it makes me feel proud of it. anw, Diana F+'s Hotshoe (which don belong to me) could fit into my Blackbird,fly! (: there's still the different filter paper as you can see from the flash! so yesterday we were fire-ing away! i love the 2 lens reflex, it's really cool. trust me. but 200 bucks for a plastic camera, the price doesn really justify the goods. cos there's no external flash! only B mode! ): an additonal hotshoe will cost me another 50 bucks lurhhh! sad!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009 @ 5:28 AM

hello world. i learn many many new words today not because i want to but i have to use it for literature. hahaha. i kinda loathe comparison poetry to the max!

i brought my BBF to school. and im really happy. i cant wait to finish my film (:
and today as i was walking home, i kinda realised that this will be my last year wearing school uniform. i think i will miss life in such orderly way. hahaha.

i just finished my essay "life imitates art? or art imitates life?" it was quite irritating cos i really dunno what i should write. i think i wrote out of point.

it's currently, 9.31pm! i like reporting time. it gives me a sense of urgency. like there is a need to rush up on what im currently doing.

there is a lot of I in my entry. it's like, i am this and i am that. im such a reportive person. is there even such word?

and today, i didn have to run during pe cos i hurt my back during dance last wed. and it still hurts now. im contemplating to visit the seiseh!

btw, fluffy scratched her own eyes so there's a scar. i feel her pain. i hope it wont be so serious.

my post seems very detach, i think i should stop. there's many thoughts running through my head now.

i want to sleep, but i wanna wash my hair now! what should i do?

Tuesday, February 17, 2009 @ 5:43 AM
):
you always make me wanna cry.

wx said she felt like slapping me today cos my answers to the Ten stuff was annoying.
hahaha, i wanna slap myself too.
i feel like the dumbest person on earth, currently.
and when im typing this, there's tears in my eyes.
i feel abit sad and i know why.
it makes me wanna break away so badly,
but it's like im always in this circle.
im always running in this circle.

there's many things i don understand.
won't it be nice if i can detach myself.

well, my bbf is here(: i'll try to make myself happy.
but who would understand?

and today, im really tired.

Saturday, February 14, 2009 @ 7:03 AM

TEN STUFF!

Firdaus made me do this!

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single - of course!
2. Are you happy - extremely
3. Are you bored - nope, having fun
4. Are you fair - erm? i really dunno
5. Are you Italian - you wish.
6. Are you intelligent - duh, more than the ones reading this lame stuff def!
7. Are you honest - that depends.
8. Are you nice - not really, maybe.
9. Are you Irish - no im creme.
10. Are you Asian - Chinese

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Crystal Goh
2. Nicknames - chiat, bimbogoh, all annoying names you can think of.
3. Birth place - Moun Eliz!
4. Hair color - Black
5. Natural hair style - black
6. Eye Color - black
7. Birthday - 30thmay91
(number 8 is missing.)
9. Favorite color - i like all things red
10. One place you'd like to visit - Heaven

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love -obviously
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - NO!!!!!
3. Do you currently have a crush? - hmmm.. i have many crushes. haha
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - tons
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - it's hard not to.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - it was like day w/o sun.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - nope, i never really liked a person first.
8. Are you afraid of commitment - that depends
9. Who was the last person you hugged - someone at youth, i think it was yuki!
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - yijia! hahaha

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love. but lust is more exciting.
2. Hard liquor or beer - I dont drink
3. Cats or dogs - Fluffy, only fluffy
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - erm.. everyone lurh
5. Creamy or Crunchy - crunchy
6. Pencil or Pen - hmmm, ball point.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - hmmm, wild night out sounds fun
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness
9. Night or day - day, i feel more alive.
10. IM or phone - phone def.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - i guess so.
2. Seen a polar bear -zoo?
3. Done something you regret - all the time.
4. Bungee jumped - nope, but soon.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - guess so
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker -huh?
7. Been caught naked - lalala,
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Nope, ex is ex for a reason.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - not yet, but fluffy will be diff.
10. Wanted to disappear - always wanna run away

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - wide small, small eyes. not too small please.
2. Light or dark hair -dark. light reminds me of bengs.
3. Hugs or kisses - both will be nice.
4. Shorter or taller - Taller, but i always end up liking shorter guys, i know.
5. Intelligence or attraction - both! i hate dumb guys.
6. Topman or Zara - doesn bother me.
7. Funny or serious - FUNNY AND SERIOUS! but i hate, fun and friendly guys. esp, the "popular" ones and the zi high kind.
8. Older or Younger- Older. younger ones are really immature imo.
9. Outgoing or quiet - Outgoing = talkative right!
10. Sweet or Bad - there's this chinese saying, if the guy aint bad, the girl wouldn like. but such guys, usually comes in a package of the both sweet and bad.

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - yeahhh, many many many.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - 6 hours was the longest with hahahaha
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - nope.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - not thanks.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - hahaha, yeah man.
6. Ever been on a dance team - of cos la! im a dancer.
7. Ever been on a sports team - yeah, netball.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yeap.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - not yet, but soon
10. Ever been in a rap video? -hate raps.

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made -to the most irritating person.
2. Last person you kissed - dont quite wanna rmb
3. Last person you hung out with - youth!
4. Last time you worked - after O's
5. Last person you talked to - my bro
6. Last person you IM'd - none.
7. Last person you texted - wx
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - hmmm, the last movie i watched was angus thongs and perfect snogging. but i don rmb who i watched it with.
9. Last person/thing you missed - youth.
10. Last website visited - hotmail

Thursday, February 12, 2009 @ 4:26 AM

im playing it on a heavy routine,
how are you feeling now?
i hope you are fine.


ughh, i cant sit straight, slouch, bend my hips. my lower back hurts from all the dancing yesterday. adding on, i feel totally sian cos blocktests are so near and im not prepared! and whats worse, i haven got my othello book and blocktest is like in a week. zomg! and not only that, im in this world of confusion and uncertainty. my bad, for not trusting.

Monday, February 09, 2009 @ 2:34 AM

was just thinking back about the last few days of my life. it struck me hard that the people in my life simply come and go, and what was most important then, may not be so important now afterall. just like what is actually so important now, may be so unimportant later in life. i was left thinking like this after i saw my pri.sch friend on friday night while i was having dinner after dance. and it occured to me then it was so difficult to actually even walk up and say hi. there was this feeling of total uncertainty. the fact that she wasn just a friend then when i was so close to her stirred me to think even more. i could still recall talking to her almost everyday on the phone when we were only in pri.4. we used to be that close. i remember how we used to cry over friendships, but now she's almost so non-existant in my life. looking back it has only been 7 years. it just stunned me thinking whether the friends i have now, will they become a total stranger 7 years later?

and then i carried on looking back at the times when i was just about 14/15 yrs old, around there. and at that point of time, there was dude who really meant a lot then. but now, i do not even converse with the dude anymore. even so, i have forgotten that kinda of love that existed btwn us.

and because of such incidences, i guess we have all grew to a point that its so easy to tell ourself how we are able to let go of the people around us, even when they mean so much now. i guess we are certain that in time to come, such issue will become totally in-existant. tragedy isn't.

Friday, February 06, 2009 @ 10:35 PM
i want you to know,
nothing hurts more than
hearing you ranting on the others,
han feeling the ache and hide it
and seeing you so suicidal.

don tell me you understand,
what is 1 to 3.
the only one to the many ones
yet the same chorus each time.

i never called you those names,
fact was it never occured to me.
miracles happens,
but just not about you.

now,
lets save some time,
i hope you're happy now.
the world don owe you.

selflessness has never been out of your reach,
neither has happiness.
you aint entitled to your selfishness,
cos you still have something real.

my dear, life isn all about loving and being loved.

Thursday, February 05, 2009 @ 3:40 PM

leaning on the pillar of support,
i am thankful.
you don have to feel remorseful,
i don actually blame for that.
for what sentimental value each holds.
i do somewhat understand,
but you made it simplier each time to go through.

perhaps each time,
it sounded nonchalent.
the heartbeat of each count,
the laughter of each lines.
i did wished for the otherwise,
once was not now.
that was somewhat so behind.
left, picked and riding on.

@ 5:22 AM
keep growing!
i had my twister fries today after 4 years! hahahaha! the last time i ate it was in sec1 please! hahahaha, ohmy damm noob right. thankyou!

anyway, performed today and i think i didn do quite well. i wanna eat more pie kia! i feel like eating a lot these few days.

Sunday, February 01, 2009 @ 4:59 AM
table manners please..
these few days had been chaotic. essays, essays and more essays. yeah, what can you expect from the arts subject, seriously. just finished research on post colonialism and existentialism. woah you must be wondering, but i merely just cut and pasted from the many internet sources available.

other than trying to complete reading Joyce and Othello, and apart from DRQs, case studies and all the other insane homework which made me zomified, i feel like quitting SYF! hah, i know. im mad, retarded, stupid, insane and most crazy.

it just doesn make sense to continue, i don care if we have put in all the effort and get just a COP in the end. but i don wanna get in return a COP from something that is of all the no-sweats! it's end of jan, actually, today is the 1stFeb and we are, not near, from completing the dance routine. i know it sounds like a joke cos it seems like my school is the only school that have yet to complete the dance. but of cos im telling you, this is not a joke i have created cos im bored. what made it worse, is how people can actually just skip trainings as and when. im not saying that my attendance is perfect but never have i seen in my whole entire life, that more than half of the people involved could just miss training when the competition is barely 2 months away. much as i am amazed, im purely disgusted. i don care if some other school people in dance comes and read about how terrible my school's dancesociety is. Fact is, it is that horrible and selfish and i don see that there's a need to hide any fact of it. im just tired of this cycle. and i know some people were busy with stuffs outside, but the fact that i went and didn do anything for the 2 hrs made me feel ughhhh. there should be better coordination, really.

sorry, but im annoyed! like totally with all these very unpleasant issues. time could have been used for more important stuffs then.

well, other than all these. i have been spending lots of time with a fat object. HAHAHAH!