Thursday, August 30, 2007 @ 5:07 AM

a week of break before the rest of the papers start piling up on me. maths was tough, i thought the prelim paper last year was bad enough, this year was worse. my hopes are all dashed. sheesh. i need to work abit harder i guess. ss was okay, did good governance, and crapped through half of my essay. conclusion=i screwed my prelims.

@ 5:05 AM

i wish you would cherish your life abit more, it hurts me to see you feeling so feeble again.

Monday, August 20, 2007 @ 4:53 AM

i found another time when sg is having the next fireworks!!. its going to be on new year eve. last day of dec! the govt is on the progress of planning. great. xinlin!! must gogogogo!! rah!

@ 4:19 AM

chinese lesson today was probably the most ever relaxed one. ms moo didn even bother to nag at me and thats so unsual. and mr ang was weird, he went round my desk and asked me if 'I am going to pass my add math this time', though i was alil afraid i won't make it pass prelim, i thought it was better for me to feel more confidence, so i told mr ang "i will definitely pass". well, i wont disappoint him, i hope. at the back of my mind, i was thinking of not just passing but with a distinction! rah

managed to tune into huanhuanai cos my tutor had diarrhoea and couldn come. rah, i hate changing tuition dates. it makes me mad. oh wells. we had our class photo taken today. i stood at the last row alright! not that i was the tallest or anything but cos i fitted just nice next to the shortest guy in our class. *-* wth?! but its not that bad anw. so tadaa, and there's SL photo taking tomorrow too..

cme is a total bore. and why does mr yeo makes it a point to conduct cms when those precious seconds can be used to do some other constructive lessons, eg, LIT! damm,our school have a very poor system!

i don know why im just so emotional. chong didn tear at all during the show but tears just kept flowing out of my eyes. my fragile heart, just this vulnerable.

Friday, August 17, 2007 @ 5:40 AM

i need my chem tys! i just cant figure out why i had left my foolscapt and chem tys under my table. i feel !@#$%^&*()_ pissed! very piss off OK! i was planning to revise at least 5 chapters of chem! grrr!

school was a total waste of time. except the fact, i did a speech in school for eng! that's all. i spent my lit lesson day dreaming and just copying down notes. like how useless, cause i could just find the translation on the internet. seriously, there should just be a study break.

we didn had p.e today, so much for looking forward to friday. i dislike the new OM, he's really on the dress code of CASUAL FRIDAY!

wad DISAPPOINTMENT! macs breakfast tmr, GREAT! i cant wait! lala~

urgh, my puffy finally arrived after 3 weeks =). yet i want to buy more stuff frm taiwan spree! however im so broke and im still waiting for another 4 pieces of clothes to arrive. -_-" it's going to take a long time, i suppose, just whatever, i cant wait for O's to end.

i pretty much need to get down to my studies. its just 9 days to prelim, like rahh, rahh!! i dont think i would hit 12 points for prelim at the rate im going. im left with phy/chem, add math, lit, hist/ss and geog! i dont think i can very much study for english, and i think im very much prepared for math, just need alil more practice. way to go!!

shall get down to some work now!

Thursday, August 16, 2007 @ 6:06 AM

i will be there for you, just as i always promise you.

@ 6:03 AM

i don't understand. it sucks.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007 @ 6:23 AM

had o'level english oral today. well well, it went rather fine. it was infact GREAT! except for the picture discussion. i didn really talk much about the picture itself.

Life has been quite stressful with mountains of pressure piling up.

I've got an A2merit for my chinese, the fact that i never did hit an A in my four years in Mayflower. im really glad. i knew this brought shocked to many many people around me, one of which is my dear dad and mum, and another one is ms moo. but im glad im in ms moo's cls, she helped me alot i suppose. thanks.

and im not retaking, i just want to spend my time on the other subjects that are just as impt to me.

Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 2:26 AM

crawled up from bed and headed straight for ballet with an empty stomach. my leg sore so much now, it was like 3 hours of technique class with pointe work. my poor toes almost gave way. it was just too much for me.

upon breaks and during the class, my ballet friends started fretting about the soon-to-be in 24 hours release of the O level chinese result. i wasn all that afraid till it struck me hard, if i don get an A. i have to retake the paper at the end of the year. with that minimum amt of time i have, how am i going to cope with all the other subj on hand, considering that, humanities makes up half of my subject combi? im feeling alil scared now and the sudden impt of time management.

good grief..

im going to revise math tonight and ss sb techniques. i think im having insufficient math practise. LOL *-*

Saturday, August 11, 2007 @ 7:30 PM

it just suddenly struck me that i was there when you bought that shirt. it seems like jus yesterday. but yet, something's missing. it's devastating, so vulnerable, so fragile, so inevitable.

Friday, August 10, 2007 @ 5:56 AM

rah, im quite a failure, like really roar!! i didn do any revision at all!! so much for a 3 days break to revise for prelims. and guess much, i went down to amk hub today. i was close to tears alrite! i was so so BORED at home. i was munching m&m and chewing wormy gummies the whole morning. i just wasn anything in the mood to study at all since it was a school holiday. urgh, so i hoorayed down when bbuttock smsed me to go down to HUB!, i was overjoyed!. laughs, i felt so relieved. though, very guilty for wasting 36 precious hours throughout the three days. oh well. i shall make full use of my time on saturday and sunday.



i spent my national day slacking. went for dimsum at hongxin in the morning and had bbq at home.. -_-" my eyes were fixed on the tv trying to catch a glimpse of my brother in his mosquito "eagle" costume but apparently i couldn spot him at all. i must say the lightings and the fireworks are way better than the preview i watched the other time. i must upload the fireworks on my comp soon. it's still in my handycam. URGH! lazy.



time to get down to some work. ciao! shall revise for chemistry! erm, petroleum, petrol, naphtha, kerosene, diesel, lubricating oil and BITUMEN??!! petroleum, petrol, naphtha, kerosence, diesel, lurication oil and bitumen.

@ 3:41 AM

you asked "do i really mean nothing in your heart"

i said "yes, nth at all"

you said "dun lie to me."

i said "i've already moved on"

you said "but i still feel something"

i said "but i dont"

you said "you are heartless"

i said "ok, what do you want me to do"

you said "what if.. ... ..."

i said "i feel nth. just leave it to GOD"

i pretty much know the feeling of not holding on to something i shouldn have, but instead you rather live on with something you know you cant have, something so hard to maintain, not because you love but because you just want to feel wanted. i am not like you. i move because im not you. im not lying, im true.

@ 3:36 AM

you may think im lying, but really, you just don't matter anymore.
i have learnt to live without you for this long, i dont see why there should be a sudden change back to everything that was in the past.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007 @ 9:55 AM

darnit, slacked the whole day, and i didn do any revision at all! OMG! went out for 12 hrs, wth?! this is bad. i missed out the natonal day celebration partly cos i didn want to go and i had dental appointment at 10am.

i changed my braces to blue, i wanted to be patriotic and have it RED AND WHITE, but then, i decided to keep it simple, and tried blue for the very first time. its kind of striking and loud, but i like it. i dont want to remove my braces so fast!!!

*-* my bro was being spastic, i guess? he called me at abt 10 plus after school and told me school was fun and i should have went. i was like, "yeah rite" and hung up on him. he was being so vained in the morning lurh! he woke and i caught him styling his hair with red wax for like 15 min?! VAIN!!

ah, finally, watched huan huan ai ep 10. and i was tearing so much after scene 5, somewhere there.. damm, more resemblance of you, my dear. that was the exact feeling. so prominent and similar. now, i just cant wait for the next episode. it's going to be so good!

O level chinese is to be announce next week plus stress stress stress, O level ENGLISH oral is on the 15thAUG. im not exactly worried or anything though. TRIGO test for add math, arithmetic for Emaths, organice chem for chem, electrostatic and magnetism for PHYSIC! busybusybusy! HELL! schools HELL!

and i bought a new school shoes from converse, i think thats the cheapest sch shoe i can find since i didn want anything from bata! S$39.90, yeah i noe its expensive and ridiculous to waste my money since im graduating, but my socks are showing cos theres this BIG HOLE, like the size of 2 fifty cent coins! and my dad insisted of gettng a new pair cause he thinks that it is extreme ugly for people to peek at my wiggly toes.

oh, and my auntie is going back filippines, sad. i will miss her.. i promise i will write to you.

HAPPY! my dad have decided to go JAPAN for vacation. and i get to plan the itinerary. completed half of the JOURNEY so far. i have no idea why i planned HIROSHIMA, but i thought it was enriching for them to learn abt the WW2 at the peace park, thou not exactly impt. i want to see GEISHA! so i placed KYOTO down. bravo.

arh, wad a long BORING, unmeaningful post written, all so just not to kill my blog again. dimsum tmr, lovesss!

Friday, August 03, 2007 @ 2:07 AM

im quite sad.
flunked my add math test agn? and i studied for it. took the paper back and realised i forgot to multiply all my denominator with my coefficient. i redid my test paper just now without looking at the work solution, and suprised, i managed to do all except question 4 and question 6b. sometimes i really hate myself for being so forgetful and careless. urgh.

bought alfredo creamy sauce today. temptation, have decided to whip up creamy chicken for dinner. LOLS! i will start cooking at 7pm! <3 hopefully the food turns out well. and straight fries with cheese and lots of mustard sauce, my favourite. yipee!

dodgeball is super duper fun. this is probably the last few P.E lesson we are going to have for the year. memories, memories. fun and all laughters.

going pariss soon, not paris (the country) but the buffet restaurant. lol, and i have decided to go for dental appointment on wednesday and skip celebration. GREAT!