Sunday, September 30, 2007 @ 2:04 AM

it's what you do to me. and it's all because of you.

approx. 2 weeks till study break, 3 weeks to o's, 4 weeks to midst of exam, 5 weeks to mid exam break of 2 days, 6 weeks to fun laughter peace and joy.

dug out some old photographs and caught your face in a couple of them.
do you remember it all?
or have you forget them all?
this is how much i wonder.
but a part of me have left it all behind.
your sudden appearances makes me a lil puzzled with my inner self
but yet
even seeing you nowadays.
just makes you another "stranger" in my mind.

@ 1:47 AM

yesterday's night was uber fantastic. went to no signboard restaurant at kallang near the indoor stadium to celebrate my bro's bdae. ordered chili crab and white pepper crab. aww, my favourite. XD

my dad took the wrong route home and we ended up stuck in the traffic at geylang after dinner. and i got a eye view of some chickens. most are china nationals la, oh man, that's so degrading OK. and i saw a couple of them, not exactly pretty, in very skimpy hot shorts or mini skirt luring some passerbys with that slutty pose and seductive eyes, smoking cigarette some more. wah, pollute the air la. and i saw many youngsters too, erm, guys probably our ages or older, i used to thought geylang was for old ah pak, now teenage guys too! wth?! seriously.. the entrance of hotel 81 was packed la, and it took a long 20 mins for us to get out of that irky place.

revised social studies today. didn accomplished much, probably cos we just finish a major exam and i cant sit still to mugg for the more major one anymore. this seems damm idiotic, cos O's is def more impt. urgh. my sony camera went berserk ytd, it was like a blank screen in black and i could still take pictures. i almost cried, it's only 3 months old for goodness sake. like lols. Thank God, my bro saved it, somehow or rather. sheesh

shall try to start doing some proper revision now. if i can..

Friday, September 28, 2007 @ 7:50 PM

it's funny how people contradicts themselves. ohmy.

@ 7:43 PM

do i really want this?

urgh, i haven done anything since i got home ytd. darm, and i slept from 1030 to 1030 this morning. its 12 hrs for goodness sake. planning to work abit on my physic (electrostatic and so on) blah, not getting anything done makes me a lil worried, but aint got any motivation. no cones today as well. DX

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007 @ 6:07 AM

went to school today and it was pretty exciting during morning assembly. our school had turned into a military school(according to hoho) and pretty much like changi airport too. -_-" pretty hilarious when all sec 4 express classes had to go through a "gantry check on grooming". upon reaching the lane where supposedly for firemen to park the fire engines in case of a fire. there was 3 teachers who stood there guarding the entrance. hahahas, so we were made to rise our hand up high like in a collar coaster ride, and they made sure that the band of our skirt could be seen. which i think spot checks are useless, cos the grooming of the students would just return to its very bad state after we entered the classroom. no difference anw.

was suprised miss yeo didn scold those who didn came to school yesterday, i thought she would probably go crazy and snap at us like how she did after national day. oh well, i guess she probably know us of old and knows that we wont change. too bad.

to clown: thanks alot. i know it seems kind of rude of me to just roll my eyes back and turn my back to you after that "long" glance in the morning, but thanks alot of not doing the same to me. it just hurts alot to see you after all so long and knowing pineapple was near doesn make me feel any better.

@ 1:25 AM

i cant wait for jan next year. so many things yet so little time. officially 27 days to my first O's paper. and why does it just have to be my d-day aka A math paper. oh shucks. kinda suck man. i didn want to go to school ytd so kinda "pon" school. i stayed home and completed 2 maths papers and did MAN quotes. its halfway done. i feel much accomplished than being in school, cos i will just be rotting my day away like today, except the fact i finished the emath paper that mr ang gave in 2 periods. i even had time to spare 80 mins yesterday to watch "snakes on plane". it was real gruesome , cos the snake bit and gorge out the human's eyes and the pus oozed out like till forever? it was so gruesome la, kinda grabbing my tatami while watching it. uber hilarious.

watched underdog on saturday with my bro at home. it was just like any other super hero movie where the dog comes and save the day. reminds me of powerpuff girls somehow. >.< oh wells, its quite okay la. shall turn into a pig now!!

@ 1:00 AM

seriously, you can fool the entire world but you just cant fool me. LIAR! it's okay you gave me one of our friends' old no that is now curently invalid to fool me, and the guts you have to actually tell me that the person was a stalker, i salute, but c'mmon you missed out the small little details that the no. you used of that friend is my friend as well. im not that dumb or senile yet to be actually fooled by you (im rather sensible and still thinking you know), because i saved the number in my phone. caught you red handed ya. and, please stop acting like you care about me and my life, i don need those concerns of yours at all. it just makes my hair stands. i would kindly appreciate if you will just kindly leave and never ever try to contact me. i am so disgusted with your every bit of your ridiculous behaviours. yeah, its okay you say that i treat you like dirt rather than taking you as a friend, im cool with it honestly, i like it this way actually. it's ok even if we will not be friends anymore, i don want your friendship (proclaims), yeah, you used to be the one to tell me to get all over it and it's easy to get all over it actually now that many days had past. stop making yourself pitiful infront of me, it won't work, i have learnt not to trust you. infact, i will not, would not sympathize or take any notice on you. there is just so many people out there i would rather place my trust on them than you. well, neither do i want to associate myself with a big fat liar who appears to be so concern and well interested about my life but infact is just trying to poke your ass into my business. swept off,

Saturday, September 22, 2007 @ 9:27 AM

im so sorry if i had hurt you today. im sorry if i did not consider how you would feel. i feel like the baddest person around. but then all i want you to know, is that, if i cant give you my all, then its nil between us. because i dun wan you to be hurt in the end. i don want you to assume anything and i don want you to hang your hopes up high. most of all, i dont want you to give up the whole forest for a very insignificant tree.

@ 9:11 AM

two more weeks till study break and sec 4 graduation day. just realised how much time i am left with to see you around the campus. i guess we all knew it doesn matter since long ago, since we had made things clear but the matter of fact that we're parting still kind of stuck in my head. i guess we all knew this is just a matter of time. yet it seemed just like yesterday when we first started talking and stuff like that. almost 3 semesters had past just like that, and now its so near to saying goodbye. i will miss you. but will you.

@ 8:46 AM

what ifs.
what if tomorrow never come?
what if i never have a chance to tell you how i feel all these while?
what if im to wake up and find that you're gone?
what if the world just perish and rapture comes the next second?

do you know how i feel?

Saturday, September 15, 2007 @ 8:39 PM

you are my biggest regret.

it's sunday. i wish i could turn up for ballet class, but i have halted lessons due to pior commitments. im damm devastated. D= shall turn up the sunday once o's ends.

my friday was spent mapling with, wx, xl and yuki. kinda funny to see four noobs trying to kill red snail and green slimes. i wished i had nvr tried auto-click cos it just screwed up my characters. like how annoying. it makes my character unable to jump! how to maple if your character stuck and whipping the air all the time. so there goes my cleric and i have to start as a noob again. i basically chiong on my mana pots and lvl up damm fast. half an hr one lvl, for a mage is damm fast. but then again, i lose alot of money. thank God i have a supporting account.

dad's going natas later. he was supposed to go ytd but then cos i couldn go so he decided to go today. and after much discussion, im not going holiday with my family most probably cos i wanna go japan in january cos the price of airfare and accomodation is much cheaper. well, going japan is def much more exciting than spending 10 days in china looking at some weird sceneries which i do not, will not learn how to appreciate now. well now, i shall plan my very own itenary to japan and gain approval from my dad.

watch "the invasion" ytd. erm, not scary at all larh, but it was quite funny at some parts.

Friday, September 14, 2007 @ 6:57 AM

sigh times infinity. i kinda screwed up my sci pp 1. not tt i didn noe how to do, i was ponderring so much that i changed so many of my answers that were initally correct. there goes my distinction. GREAT! and i forgot to bring my calculator today tt i had to borrow from my bro. so glad my bro is in this school. i found out tt i didn have a calculator at 7.50am. like OMG! its 10 min away to the start of the pp. i told mdm liew and then i ran to his class and realised they were in parade sq. and i RAN back. OMG! i was panting so badly, even during the paper. hais. im done for.

rah, made a couple of careless mistakes for physic pp 2. 10 marks gone alr. -_- and todays mcq, like wad 9 marks gone too. -_- and chem, 6 marks flew away, and practical like another 6 marks. calculate all divide by 2, 15.5 marks gone. do the maths. 84.5 marks left. GREAT! im screwed. and plus many many questions tt i dunno. good grief. start crying

so glad, noting came out. xD lit was okay, didn have time to finish when i could have written much more. RAH!

geog was hmm.. bad. studied very hard on weathering and thermometer and stuff but it just didn came out. i attempted on the natural veg and rivers which i crapped through half of it. human geog, considering the fact i didn even read through, i have no idea how i did managed to even write a single line out. zzz, paper one was damm tricky. the words usage was more liike a english paper than goeog.

add math paper was horrendous. i dont even know if i can pass la. shucks la. i think i must start mugging for O's soon. eh, maybe God wants me to screw prelims so i wouldn be so over confident and think tt im able to do well for O's. maybe. urgh. shall continue to work hard. i need a longer study break. 2 weeks just isn enough. i screw midyr cos of syf trainings, now i screw prelim cos im so lazy. next what? am i going to screw O lvl and drop out of school? dammit. i must start working.

whoots, no school on monday! wheeeee....

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @ 4:51 AM

it's almost three whole weeks, im starting to hate this, i just want to stay alil longer, so i can stand by you.

i feel so unmotivated. ohh wells. CID tomorrows, gasp! it's already 8.00pm. shucks man. history was so bad, what i studied just didn come out, so oh well, i basically crapped through my two essays. it would be miraculous, very miraculous, if i even pass my history. -_-" im feeling so upset over it that i just cant think of any other thing. i felt like crying during the paper, it was so disheartening. imagaine if it was O's?! THANK GOD it's just PRELIMS! whoots

shucks man. thursday is d-day again. geog pp1, add math pp1, and physic pp 3. the fact that i haven started physics at all, so im kind of prepared to fail, unless im some genius that is able to absorb everything in an hour tmr. goodness gracious. i cant believe this is happening, its prelims!. urgh, no biggy anw.

time will heal your hurts, but time cannot erase our memories.

Thursday, September 06, 2007 @ 9:28 AM

I BEAT BLADY IN REVERSI! FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! PROCLAIMSS!! WHOOTS!!!

YIPEE YA YA!!!!

Wednesday, September 05, 2007 @ 9:11 AM

it's 0001am, a brand new day!! and im online blogging. cool. haven been sleeping early, infact had nvr slept early than 1am the last few days. i had been constantly playing msn game until my eye lids were closing real shut. its kinda addictive. esp, when your opponent is so much stronger than YOU!

a piece of note to my opponent 'pig' (name changed for identity sake)
though i haven won a game of reversi with you but rest assure i wont give up, and if you reading this, one day i will trash you. muahahahahahaaha.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007 @ 8:39 AM

looking back, it's rather amazing to come a conclusion that i moved on pretty fast. glanced a few and back them off. amazing me. eh, that's so random

went back for school today. it was a total waste of time. we merely did source interpretation for history(okay, pretty useful) but crap for physics. i was unable to understand what miss mok was teaching that i gave up and started talking about my ambition of being a banker. XD it's rather scary to know that we're at this stage of life where we must start planning our career. i've chosen and i will stick to it. well, all i do hope is i wouldn regret or start worrying about my decision and then revise my path to where i originally set it up. yeah, it kinda suck to decide where i want to go after secondary. i wish time will stop here, like now, in the midst of the prelim, in the midst where all your friends are still around. sounds great, huh. well, thanks for the reminder "every second past, you are stepping to your future"

botak jones was great today. had botak burger. loves.

and i hope you will stop making life hell for me.

im trying hard to study history now. trostsky's leadership. damm. concentrate.

Monday, September 03, 2007 @ 2:33 AM

what seems like eternity might just end today.

prelims are such a waste of my time. screw prelims. sheesh. why cant we just take the O's now and get over and be done with it. this preparation thing is such a tidious thing. i feel like just collapsing the ground and not move. i haven been doing anything lately. thats so nasty. rah. my prelims are screwed la.

went minior dining and sake bar for dinner ytd. it was pricey and the food wasn very fantastic or anything. ate the buffet for 36 bucks per person, expensive lurh. but the salmon and tako was very fresh actually. very well done. XD after which i went clarke quay, and ate matcha ice cream. oh well. i need to exercise. have been gorging recently. zzz.

i wouldn believe your confession. if crapping is your name, then why would i take you seriously.