Saturday, May 31, 2008 @ 11:41 PM
funky! :D

@ 7:55 AM

the light will shine when all else fades.

KAWAII NE! pukes!
teeth or no teeth.
i think we look retard here!

smile to the camera!

we did all these after watching devil beside you. MIKE HE is damm cute right. i think this is the 2nd time watching the whole thing alr. and all must agree (nic, xl, yuki) okay nods, he does look abit like mike he lor!!! and so happened we were both wearing blue. was wearing my CJ shirt. i think it was ard 3am already.

coffee bean. looks like we are in london or smth. such a comfortable feeling.

bdae celebration. weijian is now legal to smoke,drink,club. a year more chiat.

26,30,34. strength. class exco workshop

i realised i still have a 6 mths old raspberry bacardi breezer. i think i bought it during christmas or was it new year. whichever. that means i haven touched alcohol for a long time. this is a good improvement! =D i haven drank red wine either, so, it's really long over before i know it.





IGouting soon! =D somewhere along the 8-14. thats great. i haven seen them for a long time.





and my leg still sore. i cant believe i went vivo, somerset, orchard all in a day, it was on thursday. F21 stuff are really getting so overpriced. and i hate heeran, i hate the shops there. cheat my feelings ok!!! there was this top which was like under the S$9 section. was having sales right, so is like very nice and that day i shop whole day already and i didn get anything and i was so freaking annoyed ok! cos the things are either like don have my size, or abv my budget or smth! and when i wanted to pay for my top the lady come and tell me, its S$19. wth right! i was so pissed, i just gave her tt =.= face and walked out. and before that Yuki was trying this top, it was on the $19 dollars rack. and she was bloody happy cos for the whole day she was trying to find something like that, then she tried on the top everything ok! then when she wanted to pay the person was like saying $39! WT!!! damm suck right! im never ever going to shop at heeran again!!!!!





KBox on monday was awesome. i haven sang my heart out for a long time. we should really sing some teh songs next time. hahaha, jay chou overdosed man!

im going to turn in now.

LOUZHENGHUI, i hate you. why don i tell you to go eat shit then you go eat shit la. GUYS ARE SRSLY BRAINLESS! no wonder, behind a successful man, there's always a wonderful woman (the woman is prolly like breathless or smth alr)! why cant they read btwn the lines or smth?!

@ 1:54 AM
alil futher, i see
put it in a nice way - today is a beautiful saturday. it's quiet, relaxed, a day that makes me feel really tired.

i woke up by His sms. why do we always justify and blame? will there be other ways to make me feel better? what is it that is so important that i should wait abit longer before you tell? i wonder. it's an evitable feeling, i cant stop myself from being sad.

i slept through till almost 2. He called. a number i haven seen for a long time. awkward and silent moments resurfaced. we've grown far more than imagined, my 14, 15, 16, 17. you appeared.

i waited for his msg. i wasn expecting you not to.

i need to stop giving myself nightmares. i need more realistic dreams.

@ 1:40 AM

Friday, May 30, 2008 @ 12:13 AM

"if sixteen wasn sweet enough, hopefully seventeen will be! (:"

i hope so too.

Monday, May 26, 2008 @ 8:41 AM
sunshine smile;
i am a happy kid. bcos i sang!

todays good. so far so good this week. please please please, no one is to piss me off before i really turn seventeen. this sucks, i feel so darn old. farkup seventeen, im so prepared!

sunday morning at 1am, it was one of the sweetest times i had in my life. and i hope miracles will pop out again. it felt so darn good. it was such a delightful and meaningful side of life. i haven whine in a million years till then. and now i wonder, how was it going for you today?

i like bad boy looks. i guess that thought never changes afterall.

and i changed my skin. i need to start adding more colours into my life. firstly, all my lit text is emo enough, i don nid extra dark side to gloom my day. secondly, i need more colours in my life, i don mean black and white, but vibrant colours. thirdly, my skin is OLD!

lots of pictures to post. soon soon soon.

idiana jones tomorrow. hoodie [yes], popcorn [yes], drink [yes], ticket [yes], time[yes] friends [YES!] thats so random. and there's pasar malam at AMK again. hoorrrrrayyyeeee.. much misses for that!

i wonder if you still remember what's up this friday, i hope you do.

Sunday, May 25, 2008 @ 8:01 AM
i know it feels like forever


another day without you with me
is like a blade that cuts right through me
but i can wait, i can wait forever.


good luck kid! all the best tmr.

i still cant find my silicon case anywhere! creative vision M!!! why did creative stop the production?. it's like ughhhhhhhh. im so pissed. srsly! i went to simlim twice already and no place sells my skin!!! im so pissed lor. and we saw the docking station for vision M and 2 weeks ago we couldn find it! fark shit.

brrr, GP paper was okay on friday. hmm, not that i really know how to do, but im sure i did much better than those daily essays. i hope i will get a D grade! OR MAYBE A C!? and remind me to get the photos from weijian!

i know my stranger will help me through the 2 weeks. I NEED TO STUDY!

lit tmr screwed my plans! pack pack pack this whole week!! I WANT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT. I NEED A MICROPHONE NOW!

i need time to go shopping TOO. after all it's GSS now. i want a new shoes, a new bag, new watch, new clothes, new furnitures, new pencil case, new phone, new file, new pens, new stationaries, new socks, new maid, and maybe a new boyfriend.. ok im just joking about the boyfriend part. im so going to get KO. soon.

what a coincidence that Yiwen goes to alexandra hospital for dental treatment too. O.o, cool! maybe i'll have a new companion there.

there's sch tmr, brrrrrrrrrr. so much for the holidays!

denials covers my truths afterall.

Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 3:42 AM
bring in on
taking on the first battle tomorrow.

GP is going to be okay, then it's off to HOLIDAYS!

i'll mugg and i'll play =DD!

@ 3:21 AM

i cannot heed my shadow's advice.

i didn flare. now i question myself, do i still care? maybe i do, yet just trying hard to ignore the pain. i keep wondering why am i going through all these when i can just break free from you. it's time to let myself go. you're not worth, not worth. it snapped today, that instant, that bind that hold, snapped.


it's hard to ignore the scars, even harder for wounds to heal.

Monday, May 19, 2008 @ 6:48 AM

queue no. 2. ugh, fir sucks!

i ate super lots today. around noon i had fishball noodles, then went to the soup spoon at 2??! at which i drank claw chowder and mushroon soup, with wedges. then head down for BnJ, then after which large milk tea at mos, and home for dinner. im such a sucker when it comes to good food!

yesterday was terrible too. i think i had carrot cake and wanton noodles and soya bean milk in the afternoon. then drank jasmine green milk tea, then LJS in the evening. i cant remember what other junk food i had contained. i know im growing horizontally!

i want a time machine. i want to go back in time, i still miss being in 4E. =D graduation was just a nice way of saying goodbye.

Friday, May 16, 2008 @ 8:29 PM

even when no one understands, you are there to listen.

my life is screwed.

no matter how many mouths assure me that D wouldn, im still afraid. maybe it's me that's avoiding.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 5:24 AM

what is it that you want me to do? everyday another problem surface and im left there wondering what is wrong again. if there's a time when im going to give it all up, will you still bother to clear the mess? they say, when heaven makes someone happy, there's others who will be sad just as well. although we have always been so close, but you never understand. you just presumes i know everything and expects me to remember something just after you say it once. you never bother to confirm or reassure, that's where all the problem lies. despite telling you my unsatisfaction, you never bother to change anything, bcos just as the same time, you want confirmation. you just want me to believe you before you will make things right again. but sometimes you forget, those are the things that made me feel better, that will make me feel happy, that makes me know im important.

Monday, May 12, 2008 @ 8:44 AM

"those who say they will leave (shucks, how did i spell it as live initially?!) things till tomorrow are idiots" BAKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! srsly, those are the poeple who will always regret!!!

i passed chinese!!! we passed chinese!! NOT BAD! i passed my first chinese test, 59/100! the highest is 85/100 from other class! but you must know ny is a chi chong chiang sch!! its damm cheena okay! everywhere you go, if you hear someone or a grp of people speaking english, you are in luck. apart from my classmates, and the people i know it's really cheen freaks ok. anw, i shld have expected this! but i swear, the chinese paper damm tough la!!!! really damm tough!!! superbly difficult!! like sec4 paper x 1000!!! its a good start to passing A's! ok fine, i think i will pass! maybe!! oral for promos this wednesday, argh, i feel scared. anw i still feel happy, cos srsly, i sub passed all my other subj except my first math test. every other damm test is fail or sub pass! screw life. screw test. screw sch. i failed econs like ugh??!! and even when the second test which is like OPEN BOOK!, i confirm will still fail! like plus chop chop 100%!!

yeay! and im going to arnold tmr!! wtf?! rach heard as arnold opened a shop?!!! the shop is called arnold, not arnold open a shop!!! tsk!you people need hearing aids! YAY! chips platter!!!! then im supposedly to have "tuition". hahah! i know, heaven knows and hell knows.

there's GP AGAIN tomorrow. i never liked english since pri 1! its boring! all you do is compo, compre, essays, letter writing, application questions, summary, vocab, grammer. ah shit, so boring, how did i even managed to get an A2 for O's. tsk, the cambridge markers must be darn lenient. or maybe singaporeans' english sucks! which i believe that's how an A2 come about.

and now im starting to dislike GEOG, not the subj but the lectures and tutorials! i haven attended geog for 2 years cos i self-study, and self-studying something is really so much easier and faster. although going for lessons is better in a way you know what's going on. it makes learning for effective.

i want to hurry hurry finish A's. i want to go JPN! and since we didn fuifill what we wanted to in sec 4, we shld and must must must after A's. 1 mth in jpn! nodd nodd in agreement! HOORAY! im thinking i shld really travel the world in 80 days!

and i watched proposal daisakusen! it's damm sad la!! esp ep1. time time time, wait for the moment, correct time and place! no wonder she marry someone else la, stupid!!! and as usual, i cried, im too sentimental for my own good. ep 6 tmr!!! now with a mp4, entertainment is always on the go!

"and if a person doesn love you the way you want him to, that doesn mean he don love you with all his heart"

Saturday, May 10, 2008 @ 10:58 PM

you forced me to say things that i nvr meant.

@ 9:33 PM

btw, i got a PSP slim, in black. cool!

@ 8:00 PM

im disappointed, beyond words.

alright, im going back to mayflower to help the sec 4s at the night classes., for CIP. =DDDDDD ahahahaa, my world seems brighter.

went for NYband concert ytd. im sorry but i really cant appreciate GuZheng at all! but at least i try to listen, unlike joshua, zhicheng and (i cant spell his name) who watched harold and kumar during the concert? ugh, bad kids. eddie and siling were the only one listening. jiayi, me and cole were half dead, we'll trying to listen. but the band is so much better anyway. alrite, comments to myself.

luck luck, i managed to catch the last last last bus home. =D

you're right.

Thursday, May 08, 2008 @ 12:47 AM

and i guess it hurts to see you around.
when there's questions without answers,
someone's out there waiting.
each minute will pass,
and thoughts will sink,
when tomorrow comes,
tell me what will it be.

@ 12:07 AM

to all, i think there's too much laughing gas in my body today. i just couldn stop laughing. hahahahahah?!

and im still waiting.
tmr will be friday,
hope to hear from you soon.
crystal

Monday, May 05, 2008 @ 4:29 AM

i still keep my hopes high,
i mean it, when i said it will be hard to say goodbye,
it's just some things that cant be replace so easily.
and for better or for worse, i still miss you.
it's just not easy to let it go like this.
this time, i put up a mask for you,
all just to pretend im okay without you.
but the truth creeps up when everyone's asleep.
im just not okay, at least not without you.
it's hard not to keep my eyes off you.

Saturday, May 03, 2008 @ 9:14 AM

"things will happen the way you imagine them to be"

doesn happen in real life, but in hansel and gretel that is.

hansel and gretel, srsly not for the frail hearted. i mean it's worth watching basically so bos it aint exactly horrorfiying but it defintely sent a chill down to my spine. hee, i think it's a must watch bcos there ain any of the typical long hair ghost. but it puzzles me, in what way, is it hansel and gretel when no kids get lost but adults. but okay, interesting. korean movies still pawn local shows.

napfa today and what can i say, it's finally over and done with. one more year of napfa and thats it. well 2.4km is not done yet, but soon on monday!!

after napfa went down to PS to watch hansel and gretel. and i had pizza chips. i haven ate that for ages. =DD

this is just my another series of misfortunate event.

@ 8:36 AM




sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide,
they're swept away and nothing is what it seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams