Tuesday, May 22, 2007 @ 12:40 AM

whoo, i seriously need to learn how to control my uproaring emotion.

someone prayed for me and told me this "you know, you are just like a girl that is stuck in the middle of the road, and everyone is moving at such a ultra fast speed that you are just there stuck in the middle"
she told me that i should lean on God, not just looking for him but reaching for him. i tried. silently cried alot. but, im still stuck in here. it just seem that i aint able to move on. and this sucks! all that my friends can ever tell me is to move on and its easy, but no one exactly know how i feel. who would ever understand how i feel? i dont blame my friends that they dont understand because they are not me, but i thank God for giving me friends who are always being there for me when i needed someone the most. esp, wanxing, xinlin! and of cos the rest like yuki, etc..

maybe i should learn to let go. although sometimes its so hard, i guess its something for me to learn to grow up, to cherish and of cos to learn how to treasure others. i guess time will take care of the forgotten. and its your smile that im leaning on everyday to keep my life glowing.