Friday, July 06, 2007 @ 5:13 AM

47 days to prelims. -_-" screwed. i donno my facts well. and my teachers have been going rather eccentric and demanding. I'm unable to cope with this hard felt feeling. finally, bought my blood red nalgene bottle, cost me exactly 20 bucks, from sports connection. im happy, wait should i even be? laughs. see the way im typing here and you with intelligent guess, know im mentally unstable. at least, no more water from the school water coolers. rach have her lime green, wanxing with her orangy red and my bloody red.

and, ms mok have 3 nalgene bottles. the red snowman, purple and a new green one. argh, she's lucky, if only i can change my bottle everyday, just like her. *envy*
still, im proud of my "3 major problem affecting youth in my country" expository essay. i read it a few time and thought this is one of my most accomplished compo i have done this year. i hope such topics would come out for the o level, though i highly doubt so.

f**k i need to redo my history cause i lost my essay. well done?! i feel like hitting the roof. i dont want to redo it and spend another 30 min on a stupid essay. it could be better off doing some other things. whatsoever. i still my june holiday cat HIGH prelime comprehension to do. fark!

oh shit! should i go for NDP preview tomorrow? i cant make up my mind. my dad's pestering me to go, but i want to go out for dinner with my friends. oh no, its between friends and the scoothing sun and fireworks now. dammit. but then, i've got ss test and chem test next week. and plenty of homework! HOW??!!! ohohoh!! i like crumpler product page website. so hilarious.

im having a this mixed feeling again. i donno, a thin coat of sadness under my mask of happiness. it's not even like i could think straight anymore. its so Topsy turvy.. excuse me, can someone introduce me to a full time psychologist or a counsellor. i need one to destress. i have so many answer piling up without an answer.

i never knew. it seems to me, im no better off than a bitch and you, a jerk. what makes me someone to tell you off when im unsure of my own thinking as well. things i told you only exist in the night. yet, in the day, those words were meant just for someone else. i guess, i can never make up my mind. i always thought i have grown up, but now i know. 16 isn all that mature enough. i dont blame you. if i hate you, then would i be hating myself too.

one life, live it. that's funny. oh damm, my peace is gone. noise starts next week.