Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 5:12 AM

i feel very devastated. im in cjc now. i don even know if i like it in Cj, im trying all ways to appeal out and it is affecting me so much, i cant sleep nor talk nor eat properly. it may seems abit extreme but it's kinda like marymount all over again and except this is a tougher stage in life and im not prepare to be stuck in Cj for the rest of my next yr and half.

and anw, there are people are NY trying to appeal back to Cj cos they think Ny is abit boring and Cj more fun and wild. yeah, i mean why come back if you already put NY as your first choice and deprieved others?! But hey, i don mind, it means i stand an extra chance of getting in. oh well. i am putting lots of faith in him, i know he will guid me through, i am just unsure how. anw, Brother paul (Cj principal) mentioned that there are almost 350 over people appealing and thats yesterday. and today there were more people streaming into the school. and many of which have 10, 11, 12, 13. omg.

and the fact Ny only takes in 110 arts student this year is so annoying.

i am starting to feel the distance between us. this worrying path i am going through, im giving up very slowly.