had dance today. it was good!! i felt so rusty!! and inflexible! need to train more!! and need to lose wg. im putting on lotsa weight. cant control myself. i get hungry all the time. no idea why. i finished my econ essays in 2 hrs, be proud of me.

dance again on friday by another instructor. apparently it will be a guy. i don really like guy instructors. they give me the creep.

i want to go back for speech day too. totally envious of chong, cole, zh and blahblah. so lucky la!!! most of the mayflowerians in NY are going back. only poor souls like me!! =(((( so sad!!!!

and something always pull me back, even though the thought of giving up appears so frequently.