Saturday, May 31, 2008 @ 1:54 AM
alil futher, i see
put it in a nice way - today is a beautiful saturday. it's quiet, relaxed, a day that makes me feel really tired.

i woke up by His sms. why do we always justify and blame? will there be other ways to make me feel better? what is it that is so important that i should wait abit longer before you tell? i wonder. it's an evitable feeling, i cant stop myself from being sad.

i slept through till almost 2. He called. a number i haven seen for a long time. awkward and silent moments resurfaced. we've grown far more than imagined, my 14, 15, 16, 17. you appeared.

i waited for his msg. i wasn expecting you not to.

i need to stop giving myself nightmares. i need more realistic dreams.